Been listening now to party numbers like mamb no. 5 o lift up mood from the last post. lol. this week was full of the melting sessions. more of comprimises an make ups because i thought its better to make up rather than split up with anybody even with myself for i know i was never the culprit. Yet, sometimes the "inner" hits me that such things are bound to get broken and perhaps i was jus escaping from that situation for i think i cannot sustain such a situation and i think its better to be like this till the latter changes their thought radically and know whats really happening.
Apart from these listening to scores frm the movie "Fashion", things come on to mind like things like what the Shitler said self control or in the superlative clause of the same is Ego. Sometimes its good to be egoistic and make people realize the value instead of we losing ours and undergoing the melting sessions. lol.
Its been quite a remarkable thing after i attended the marriage and seen many of my "related" people and seen how far i am from them and its now better to understand and get away rather than the other way.. seen many people that they are the milestones in any field and i should be following the people who have set the benchmarks. anyway its good following some and the other jus listening. been procastinating most of the work and trying to wait for people. i jus think its not my time and i jus have to take the beat and then probably i suppose i would be having mine.. all these things come into my mind when i have my thumbs up soft drink near my place and the thirst is getting quenched. feels so good after i have run and returned some of shots i couldnt have in the groudn and think. I Have My Time and perhaps Dormancy will cease to exist inmy life forever.
I dono what the other person thinks when we try to have a makeover with them and i think they will get a morale booster that they are important in the bond and the controls are in their hand. sort of becomes once sided and i getting convinced by any stupid reason they tell for their act. Getting your calls cut, no reply for your calls or messages and not being informed when the others are being informed, many things in the same way that makes me feel that the relation might just not survive more and create more problems that the relation solved either for me or or for them..
I certainly feel for all the things i write, it would certainly make anybody realize how it feels like when anybody would be in my position and though i am not able to tell it as i feel. Its my opinion that anybody and everybody have a bad period in their life when solitary is the only thing that probably is the thing lingering in ur mind. having that unemployed frame of mind and finding the world moving fast and busy that u feel left alone most of the times(always).. and the more u start to think abt this. the more u drown. so its better to blog and vomit things for the day, hopiing things would be good, better than the day i blogged...
the thing that wondered me:
Dont ever tell anybody anything.if you do you'l start missing everybody
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