My feelus says i am almost nearing something like the type of feeling that freudo has, when he is near the mountain volcano to slip the ring off. perhaps from the day CBIT and MVSR have got mails and esp. industrial production., A sort of weird feeling has come in me. The fear to lose my freedom. I have been living almost with entire freedom for the past half a year and its jus i am now aspiring for more time as i think i am getting to do things that i am liking more. thts what i was talking with amma and sirisha also from the past two days. life cant be anymore exciting and unpredictable. when i was thinking i would be gobbled up by the corporate world in another month or so. i was thinking about the things i had to do. like talking abt colleagues, work and making mockery of bosses, money chase and accumulating, bank acconts, taxes, dead lines, tensions and problems for sure that i dont intend to be in adn moreover i got to go to a place regularly and monataneously doing work for the firm and "hiding" in cubicles and chilling off in pubs and thinking abt future and all.. i was scared today after having my dinner and then perhaps decided i should see dil chahtha hai movie to let this off go and be fine.
I was happy that i still tell somethings that i really feel sometimes to amma and appa and then they tell that the real test to prove the difference might well be this. Dad was telling people are tested well when they are taken into the project but the are tested even more when they are made to sit in the "bench" status and he told i had to be different there and perhaps be like a "can-do-anything" person. I felt particularly bad when i found myself selfishly trying to earn money for my pocket money some weeks before when parents were ready to give me the money i wanted. I started pondering whther i needed to get into the money chase and goose chase so fast from now and become independent not depending on my father. My habits never demand more money than my parents ever gave me. I think the platform is rightly set for me to join the job and then approch the life with better tactics without being too childish. emotion, relationship in engineering, friends and all those i think i have helped were a phase of my life and perhaps the way i am thinking trying to think and do what i am doing is the right way. i dont mean to be stolid and emotionless, but anythign in its limits is very good and perhaps my reactivity is getting controlled. i am not demanding things like before and leaving it to people for them to choose.
Its been an eye opener watching the dasvidaniya movie and the way he completes his "things to do " sheet in a comprehensive manner, showing gratitude to all he cared for. Perhaps after a couple of months, when i read my blog, i am sure i would realize how much i missed doing things i liked. i daily get up by the tenth call of my mom at 9.30 a/m sharp and then see my messages that buzzed me in the night. i then ask my mom.." aaa eroju plan aentee..?" and then a reply comes" eeroju chaala panlu chaeyalee ra nenu", which means i have to do it. then when mom goes for bath. following the multi tasking principle, i keep water for bath, clean house, and brush my teeth. then switch on the computer and put my playlist on. drink coffee have bath and then start work for the day. when i keep cleaning the house. i keep talking with amma how life changes with me and promise that i will never be like the lineage i was from. i could sometimes never imagine what i would be without her and the converse also. dad calls from office and says" arey aemaina manchi mails vuntey pampichu ra, naaku timepass avtundhi.." and then i sit down readin sports news in TOI and then computer. advait comes online and we have a typical probablistic discussion about life to sop to shuttle to cts and astrophysics and then a message comes in my phone.. "hi u there?".. continously 50 messages and then see a film with facebook scrabble and think how could i learn the smash in shuttle with the immobility problem i have in the court. i affirm," think for a fraction of a second more than the opponent and perhaps i could play better and many other things. i then sleep and then wake up ready and message lucky and raghu that i stored in a template" started frm home. in mettuguda, wil be the ground in fifteen min" and then walk from the law college to the ground with the radio on.. play well and come back home and then talk with appa and listen to soothing music and then i get a message.."finished playing aa?".. i smile and then the number counts to another fifty. have dinner altogether after the"king" leaves after his tuition for my sister. with songs and all. i sit to blog my night till i get sleep with messaging her..
I suppose things after a month cant be like this...
this time calvin and hobbes comics a small conversation:
Calvin: Look at all these ants. They're all running like mad, working tirelessly all day, never stopping, never resting. And for what? To build a tiny little hill of sand that could be wiped out at any moment! All their work could be for nothing, and yet they keep on building. They never give up!
Hobbes: I suppose there's a lesson in that.
Calvin: Yeah... Ants are morons. Let's see what's on TV.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Entry to a Fathomless field
Being listening to Socha hai from rock on and i make it a point to give a solo (including the guitar tunes) daily.. :-)
I am happy actually to note myself myself in better control and thinking better and its jus like that the controls are slowing coming back to me and its jus time that things are going to get right and probably questions that have been ringing from many a mouth wil answered in the way they have questioned and rather it would be like a mirror experience, to get what they do.
I have been experimenting rather heavily this time and been thnking there was lot to do than thinking and jus pondering about things like a LOST CAUSE thing. i have been doing lot of things that are making me know how different people are and how they behave according to their upbringing and i certainly show a lot f gratitude to the people who are directly and indirectly responsible for me writing this statement thanking them. i have been attending to some music concerts of priya sisters and unnikrishnan and certainly have observed that the art is speaking in him in such a way that its not like they look attractive and all, but one thing to observe is that the people who have the art in them whether dormant or active, it shows in their face and tht makes special like when one of the priya sister, haripriya, was chanting something liek 50 odd notes for a song(in the order of sa re ga ma pa...). It was a combination of the basic notes and i certainly think its next to imposibility to chant something in synchronization and then we were out with this... there \was somthign like a repeat telecast of the same with the instruments likeviolin mridhangam and ghattam. i thought the only way they can be in communion with themselves is by music. simultaneously its been the CAT exam week last week and lot of things ringing like calls and cutoffs and all. it was certainly a break for them too.. i was certainly feeling more than occupied and felt i was blessed to have time like this rather than cursing the time i had now.i dint want to get into the money making business so fast that i loose track so early and then i start to loose myself and become a moron that i talk professional always losing mykinda talk and attitude and always talkning about projects and all. Its jus that i am not ready to get screwed so fast.
Its a week expereincing the LOTR(The Lord Of The Rings). I've thought to see the movie and then perhaps read the book and certainly to me. Its like the film has taken me to a whole new world of characters. Perhaps a new side of the fantasy world i was alwasy in. I was always in the harry potter world with the spells and incantations and i certainly think there is more to offer than the orthodox fantasy. I would like to have a separate blog on the LOTR. my fav one was
Legolas.. and nevertheles Aragon and Gandalf(The Dumbledore actor i presume). The geography and the things that they had to face and everytime the problems with the ring and how it was affecting Freudo..
Besides these i have been venturing to put my fingers on to learn electric guitar on. Lets see how it goes. partly inspired by many.. Lolz.:-) The good news is that i have got back my Carlton Club Bat with a better grip and i feel i have been feeling better with that and jokes apart i have been feeling like the unicorn hair core(Harry potter Stuuf, its the core used in harry's wand and no other wand suited him than that..so kinds filmy stuff) sort into that and nobody else who plays with me in a band of about thirty people has a bat of my name and i think i could play better if i start move and blogs would follow regarding the human behaviour as i see in playing in the game of shuttle.. as short i am getting ready for things that are going to come,,
IN short life has been like the typical TATA SKY liner.
Iske saath ho tho life aue bhee ho Jingalalaaa(hope i got that right)
I am happy actually to note myself myself in better control and thinking better and its jus like that the controls are slowing coming back to me and its jus time that things are going to get right and probably questions that have been ringing from many a mouth wil answered in the way they have questioned and rather it would be like a mirror experience, to get what they do.
I have been experimenting rather heavily this time and been thnking there was lot to do than thinking and jus pondering about things like a LOST CAUSE thing. i have been doing lot of things that are making me know how different people are and how they behave according to their upbringing and i certainly show a lot f gratitude to the people who are directly and indirectly responsible for me writing this statement thanking them. i have been attending to some music concerts of priya sisters and unnikrishnan and certainly have observed that the art is speaking in him in such a way that its not like they look attractive and all, but one thing to observe is that the people who have the art in them whether dormant or active, it shows in their face and tht makes special like when one of the priya sister, haripriya, was chanting something liek 50 odd notes for a song(in the order of sa re ga ma pa...). It was a combination of the basic notes and i certainly think its next to imposibility to chant something in synchronization and then we were out with this... there \was somthign like a repeat telecast of the same with the instruments likeviolin mridhangam and ghattam. i thought the only way they can be in communion with themselves is by music. simultaneously its been the CAT exam week last week and lot of things ringing like calls and cutoffs and all. it was certainly a break for them too.. i was certainly feeling more than occupied and felt i was blessed to have time like this rather than cursing the time i had now.i dint want to get into the money making business so fast that i loose track so early and then i start to loose myself and become a moron that i talk professional always losing mykinda talk and attitude and always talkning about projects and all. Its jus that i am not ready to get screwed so fast.
Its a week expereincing the LOTR(The Lord Of The Rings). I've thought to see the movie and then perhaps read the book and certainly to me. Its like the film has taken me to a whole new world of characters. Perhaps a new side of the fantasy world i was alwasy in. I was always in the harry potter world with the spells and incantations and i certainly think there is more to offer than the orthodox fantasy. I would like to have a separate blog on the LOTR. my fav one was
Legolas.. and nevertheles Aragon and Gandalf(The Dumbledore actor i presume). The geography and the things that they had to face and everytime the problems with the ring and how it was affecting Freudo..
Besides these i have been venturing to put my fingers on to learn electric guitar on. Lets see how it goes. partly inspired by many.. Lolz.:-) The good news is that i have got back my Carlton Club Bat with a better grip and i feel i have been feeling better with that and jokes apart i have been feeling like the unicorn hair core(Harry potter Stuuf, its the core used in harry's wand and no other wand suited him than that..so kinds filmy stuff) sort into that and nobody else who plays with me in a band of about thirty people has a bat of my name and i think i could play better if i start move and blogs would follow regarding the human behaviour as i see in playing in the game of shuttle.. as short i am getting ready for things that are going to come,,
IN short life has been like the typical TATA SKY liner.
Iske saath ho tho life aue bhee ho Jingalalaaa(hope i got that right)
Friday, November 14, 2008
Many things to tell this time
This time no more indirect refrences and thinking about fundas and all and about my realizations that does not matter to anybody more. this blog is a just a recollection of all those college days i had. some i made them good, some i spoiled, some others spoiled but in the end items. never was a smooth one till now..
Currently listening to songs from fashion called fashion ka jalwa and recently the title track that released from the hindi version of Ghajini. Tune was so fresh, i played nonstop for tent times to actually have a taste of the music and that too rehman was in a such a big project after many years almost after Guru. That too after the time i spoke to charan about the charisma he told he lost and i could not imagine him to get into stupid emotions and talking about crying friendhsip life and all that i think wil never suit his face. anybody who knew him wil know what suits him best. so was wondering what leaving college or joining wokr could do to a person likehim. if he was so dull, what would be my sitution. so i thought the best way to get rid of this is to start doing somethign profitable or not and be constantly in something that perhaps may be useful atleast in telling.
Things like my fst year debacle in ELT lab and all, getting ragged by chandu's cousin, buying temptation chocolates for him., dancing in the buses of 5k\120 and then walking from dabba to college fearing who would catch and then in front of the bloack somebody catching and then toorturing me to complete his assignments. I suppose the day i always remember was the day when probably chandu's cousin sai told me to wait for some work of his and i was waiting in my class. my college had a small settlement behind and there were lot of buffalo herds going on most of the time as there was lotof grass all around. dono how he got an idea god knows. he told me to ring the bell of one of the buffalo and ordered me to sit on it or sing a bad song for that ocaasion . my mind was bkocked how can a person can get ideas out of thin air and that too so weird. and then personal interview, be singing like the naxals typical inspirational song about bravery and all from a movie called Arjun(okka maata okka paata and blah blah). I was singing with fullvigour and they were like getting frustrated and suddenly told "COMRADE" change song to sutta song or the suraangani ka song. then four of us started singing and then some senior of final year( i never knew told..." balisindha aa bey. veedhu aa sonto kaadhu" and bought me to a side and asked me for a smoke and told to come to a small place near the bus stand dabba. When i told i dont smoke, he told me to sit and started intellectual ragging like throeing tough oxymoron situations where i had been doing a mistake for anythign i told, neither could i stay silent also.!! then told to sing. i sang my song. lolz. then he told oh u were the boy who worked for the naxals anaa.. i felt puzzled.. changed song to come premadesham(rehman). lucky me that senior told taht i could never understadn the gravity of those words and started telling me fundas abt gals and what piece of shit they were and told me not to ruin my life and all. he then told i shoudl walk till golconda and then and then i walked and took a bus till MP. Though it looked so childish and immature to me when i was in my final year, i was never a kinda of funda boy(except few) . very rarely taking things seriously. more about me this time on a cheerful note listening to a song seriously to a song from the Linkin park' Its going down, Disk mix and really good guitar mix...
Currently listening to songs from fashion called fashion ka jalwa and recently the title track that released from the hindi version of Ghajini. Tune was so fresh, i played nonstop for tent times to actually have a taste of the music and that too rehman was in a such a big project after many years almost after Guru. That too after the time i spoke to charan about the charisma he told he lost and i could not imagine him to get into stupid emotions and talking about crying friendhsip life and all that i think wil never suit his face. anybody who knew him wil know what suits him best. so was wondering what leaving college or joining wokr could do to a person likehim. if he was so dull, what would be my sitution. so i thought the best way to get rid of this is to start doing somethign profitable or not and be constantly in something that perhaps may be useful atleast in telling.
Things like my fst year debacle in ELT lab and all, getting ragged by chandu's cousin, buying temptation chocolates for him., dancing in the buses of 5k\120 and then walking from dabba to college fearing who would catch and then in front of the bloack somebody catching and then toorturing me to complete his assignments. I suppose the day i always remember was the day when probably chandu's cousin sai told me to wait for some work of his and i was waiting in my class. my college had a small settlement behind and there were lot of buffalo herds going on most of the time as there was lotof grass all around. dono how he got an idea god knows. he told me to ring the bell of one of the buffalo and ordered me to sit on it or sing a bad song for that ocaasion . my mind was bkocked how can a person can get ideas out of thin air and that too so weird. and then personal interview, be singing like the naxals typical inspirational song about bravery and all from a movie called Arjun(okka maata okka paata and blah blah). I was singing with fullvigour and they were like getting frustrated and suddenly told "COMRADE" change song to sutta song or the suraangani ka song. then four of us started singing and then some senior of final year( i never knew told..." balisindha aa bey. veedhu aa sonto kaadhu" and bought me to a side and asked me for a smoke and told to come to a small place near the bus stand dabba. When i told i dont smoke, he told me to sit and started intellectual ragging like throeing tough oxymoron situations where i had been doing a mistake for anythign i told, neither could i stay silent also.!! then told to sing. i sang my song. lolz. then he told oh u were the boy who worked for the naxals anaa.. i felt puzzled.. changed song to come premadesham(rehman). lucky me that senior told taht i could never understadn the gravity of those words and started telling me fundas abt gals and what piece of shit they were and told me not to ruin my life and all. he then told i shoudl walk till golconda and then and then i walked and took a bus till MP. Though it looked so childish and immature to me when i was in my final year, i was never a kinda of funda boy(except few) . very rarely taking things seriously. more about me this time on a cheerful note listening to a song seriously to a song from the Linkin park' Its going down, Disk mix and really good guitar mix...
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Confirmed Confusion
Perhaps it has been my passion to use lot of oxymorons in my blog. Its jus to comprehend that How fluctuating life has been for me now. Today for a change, sad and nobody to blame. Happy things do happen to me and its jus tht i dint recognize them. Its always been my tendency to overlook what i have and observe what others have. having a comparison,, think abt people who think abt u and dont think about people who donot think of you. I seriously confess that i have been neglecting people who care abt me and oftenly care abt people who dont care abt me. This blog is abt those who made a difference and i was the one who never thought they were making a difference. There have been people who think i am almost like similar to them or can adapt to them very easily and they can talk or be with ease if they are with me. perhaps i was too engrossed that i never cared or "acknowledged" and i am facing the repurcussions for the same now. Feeling alone all the time and longing for someone i want, to make me feel better. I shouls see the better side going back to them if possible and getting along in the way that makes me and them comfortabel. some i have lost since they knew i was not intersted to be with them and then chose new ways. I may be in the same way, its so selfish to assume that the other person also thinks in the same manner..
many people whose names i cant refer have made my life special and make things something remarkable that i can never things they did to me. Like .. calling me when i am in sheer depression and i think i am hanging on the last rock of the earth., its been many times some people do respond like that. call it telepathy or good thoughts for me. i have never called epeople when they needed help and i therefor i am like this desperately thinking who would come to my rescue.. wishing me sharp at 12 my birthday, giving me surprises and helping me without i asking him(no her). lol.talking for hours on phone with me when the day has been empty, encouraging me to do things that i could do but probably i was too submissive that i could do it, showing me the positive side of any thing and waiting for me at any event when all come and talking and eating together, calling me for a pose with him for a foto without me going there, though so silly and small,it means a lot and i value them. Its futile waiting for somebody to call rather than attending the call which is waiting for you. So recognize the assets u have rather than cryingon the liablities..
Sometimes when i ask my mom probably the reason why i am like this still waiting for the job and my mind getting grilled so badly, the answer is you are learning more and in the harder way now and this was the training i had to get before i was ready to join my company and til i get the job i had to learn something new. Jus then i would know how i should be with people whom i think are close, were close and going to get close.. I suppose getting close is really bad and we probably lose our controls and we sort of become dependent on them and perhaps like them we should have our own reservations and be stable.
Been listenign to the Fashion theme song and almost had a solo performance with no audience for the song SOCHA HAI from the film Rock on. the place?? Bathroom best place to see one's talent in any thing be it dancing , soul talk, confessions or wondering abt problems that we couldnot solve outside that place..
many people whose names i cant refer have made my life special and make things something remarkable that i can never things they did to me. Like .. calling me when i am in sheer depression and i think i am hanging on the last rock of the earth., its been many times some people do respond like that. call it telepathy or good thoughts for me. i have never called epeople when they needed help and i therefor i am like this desperately thinking who would come to my rescue.. wishing me sharp at 12 my birthday, giving me surprises and helping me without i asking him(no her). lol.talking for hours on phone with me when the day has been empty, encouraging me to do things that i could do but probably i was too submissive that i could do it, showing me the positive side of any thing and waiting for me at any event when all come and talking and eating together, calling me for a pose with him for a foto without me going there, though so silly and small,it means a lot and i value them. Its futile waiting for somebody to call rather than attending the call which is waiting for you. So recognize the assets u have rather than cryingon the liablities..
Sometimes when i ask my mom probably the reason why i am like this still waiting for the job and my mind getting grilled so badly, the answer is you are learning more and in the harder way now and this was the training i had to get before i was ready to join my company and til i get the job i had to learn something new. Jus then i would know how i should be with people whom i think are close, were close and going to get close.. I suppose getting close is really bad and we probably lose our controls and we sort of become dependent on them and perhaps like them we should have our own reservations and be stable.
Been listenign to the Fashion theme song and almost had a solo performance with no audience for the song SOCHA HAI from the film Rock on. the place?? Bathroom best place to see one's talent in any thing be it dancing , soul talk, confessions or wondering abt problems that we couldnot solve outside that place..
Aasmaan hai neela kyun
paani geela geela kyun
gol kyun hai zameen
silk mein hai narmi kyun
aag mein hai garmi kyun
do aur do paanch kyun nahi
ped ho gaye kam kyun
teen hain ye mausam kyun
chaand do kyun nahi
duniya mein hai jung kyun
behta laal rang kyun
sarhadein hain kyun har kahin
socha hai ye tumne kya kabhi
socha hai ki hai ye kya sabhi
socha hai socha nahi hai to socho abhi
behti kyun hai har nadi
hoti kya hai roshni
barf girti hai kyun
dost kyun hai rooth te
taare kyun hai toot te
baadlon mein bijli hai kyun
socha hai ye tumne kya kabhi
socha hai kya hai ye kya sabhi
socha hai socha nahi hai to socho abhi
sannataa sunayi nahi deta
aur hawayein dikhayi nahi deti
socha hai kya kabhi
hota hai ye kyun
Ho ho ho……
Ho ho ho……
Aasmaan hai neela kyun
paani geela geela kyun
gol kyun hai zameen
silk mein hai narmi kyun
aag mein hai garmi kyun
do aur do paanch kyun nahi
ped ho gaye kam kyun
teen hain ye mausam kyun
chaand do kyun nahi
duniya mein hai jung kyun
behta laal rang kyun
sarhadein hain kyun har kahin
socha hai ye tumne kya kabhi
socha hai ki hai ye kya sabhi
socha hai socha nahi hai to socho abhi
socha hai ye tumne kya kabhi
socha hai ki hai ye kya sabhi
socha hai socha nahi hai to socho abhi
Monday, November 10, 2008
The Melting Sessions
Been listening now to party numbers like mamb no. 5 o lift up mood from the last post. lol. this week was full of the melting sessions. more of comprimises an make ups because i thought its better to make up rather than split up with anybody even with myself for i know i was never the culprit. Yet, sometimes the "inner" hits me that such things are bound to get broken and perhaps i was jus escaping from that situation for i think i cannot sustain such a situation and i think its better to be like this till the latter changes their thought radically and know whats really happening.
Apart from these listening to scores frm the movie "Fashion", things come on to mind like things like what the Shitler said self control or in the superlative clause of the same is Ego. Sometimes its good to be egoistic and make people realize the value instead of we losing ours and undergoing the melting sessions. lol.
Its been quite a remarkable thing after i attended the marriage and seen many of my "related" people and seen how far i am from them and its now better to understand and get away rather than the other way.. seen many people that they are the milestones in any field and i should be following the people who have set the benchmarks. anyway its good following some and the other jus listening. been procastinating most of the work and trying to wait for people. i jus think its not my time and i jus have to take the beat and then probably i suppose i would be having mine.. all these things come into my mind when i have my thumbs up soft drink near my place and the thirst is getting quenched. feels so good after i have run and returned some of shots i couldnt have in the groudn and think. I Have My Time and perhaps Dormancy will cease to exist inmy life forever.
I dono what the other person thinks when we try to have a makeover with them and i think they will get a morale booster that they are important in the bond and the controls are in their hand. sort of becomes once sided and i getting convinced by any stupid reason they tell for their act. Getting your calls cut, no reply for your calls or messages and not being informed when the others are being informed, many things in the same way that makes me feel that the relation might just not survive more and create more problems that the relation solved either for me or or for them..
I certainly feel for all the things i write, it would certainly make anybody realize how it feels like when anybody would be in my position and though i am not able to tell it as i feel. Its my opinion that anybody and everybody have a bad period in their life when solitary is the only thing that probably is the thing lingering in ur mind. having that unemployed frame of mind and finding the world moving fast and busy that u feel left alone most of the times(always).. and the more u start to think abt this. the more u drown. so its better to blog and vomit things for the day, hopiing things would be good, better than the day i blogged...
the thing that wondered me:
Dont ever tell anybody anything.if you do you'l start missing everybody
Apart from these listening to scores frm the movie "Fashion", things come on to mind like things like what the Shitler said self control or in the superlative clause of the same is Ego. Sometimes its good to be egoistic and make people realize the value instead of we losing ours and undergoing the melting sessions. lol.
Its been quite a remarkable thing after i attended the marriage and seen many of my "related" people and seen how far i am from them and its now better to understand and get away rather than the other way.. seen many people that they are the milestones in any field and i should be following the people who have set the benchmarks. anyway its good following some and the other jus listening. been procastinating most of the work and trying to wait for people. i jus think its not my time and i jus have to take the beat and then probably i suppose i would be having mine.. all these things come into my mind when i have my thumbs up soft drink near my place and the thirst is getting quenched. feels so good after i have run and returned some of shots i couldnt have in the groudn and think. I Have My Time and perhaps Dormancy will cease to exist inmy life forever.
I dono what the other person thinks when we try to have a makeover with them and i think they will get a morale booster that they are important in the bond and the controls are in their hand. sort of becomes once sided and i getting convinced by any stupid reason they tell for their act. Getting your calls cut, no reply for your calls or messages and not being informed when the others are being informed, many things in the same way that makes me feel that the relation might just not survive more and create more problems that the relation solved either for me or or for them..
I certainly feel for all the things i write, it would certainly make anybody realize how it feels like when anybody would be in my position and though i am not able to tell it as i feel. Its my opinion that anybody and everybody have a bad period in their life when solitary is the only thing that probably is the thing lingering in ur mind. having that unemployed frame of mind and finding the world moving fast and busy that u feel left alone most of the times(always).. and the more u start to think abt this. the more u drown. so its better to blog and vomit things for the day, hopiing things would be good, better than the day i blogged...
the thing that wondered me:
Dont ever tell anybody anything.if you do you'l start missing everybody
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Luck Alternation
Its perhaps my first tryout into blogging and perhaps i just think some of my concepts or the incidents i tell may be weird, but are more or less Real..I just think my life is being run by a certain law that tries to make me, my life my surroundings fluctuating that perhaps stability has lost a word in my daily routine. Everytime i think about anything or any person , perhaps long for both tangeable and intangeable, the more i start to go towards, i start to go away from it. can i control the temptation? Defining temptation..hmm..Be it a phone call whom i care for or be a simple Egg puff that smells like the tastiest dish ever made when i come back from a game of shuttle on the way to my home back. I learnt that everythin that is around me has a certain relation with me that i am not able to recognize and trying either to help me or ditch me and its jus for me to know what it has to give me..?
How come things are not going well... esp. now when there is all the time to think and nothing to do at all. when people around you are so busily engaged that they hardly get any time to talk .. sorry, think also!!. even think what this person might be doing. i jus hope life has made them very busy. one minute talks from a one rupee coin dabba from outside jus to enquire how things are going on with all has become almost a distant idea. may be corporate life has changed them!. Many things can be assumed if the problem is not getting solved.
The day at home started today with a recall to buy a new USB that got burnt the day before (for that seein the stupid film golmaal returns) and then wake up with Windows opening in the companion(Comp). */i and varsha call that. /*.then start seeing the missed calls in the phone and messages from whom i thought(dissapointment though). came up with some calls from sirisha and all who are the people who know abt me .. like predicting what may be running in my mind when my face turns up to a undescribable geometrical object!!(Bad comparison, i know it). they know me quite well. felt exceptionally bad thinking abt what life had store in for me.. abt nikhils' talk(was telling i had lot of time for enjoying now.. if not now then never and then suddenly enter team working guys with money and no time) got up after the nap with rock on songs in radio for the day's play.. dissapointingly for an another day. no racket and exceptional partner to low down my morale. thot a lot while coming why this was happening. then was listenign to songs in radio.. mood changed like the radio station..lol!! this has almost become a redundant life for quite some months and sometimes i jus think its fun.. learning more than i would be learning in office, abt people at home !!
time and radio heals everything i suppose and the thing that just made me think was this:
Complexity and Diversity are illusions created by our limitations, Simplicity and Unity are Real.
How come things are not going well... esp. now when there is all the time to think and nothing to do at all. when people around you are so busily engaged that they hardly get any time to talk .. sorry, think also!!. even think what this person might be doing. i jus hope life has made them very busy. one minute talks from a one rupee coin dabba from outside jus to enquire how things are going on with all has become almost a distant idea. may be corporate life has changed them!. Many things can be assumed if the problem is not getting solved.
The day at home started today with a recall to buy a new USB that got burnt the day before (for that seein the stupid film golmaal returns) and then wake up with Windows opening in the companion(Comp). */i and varsha call that. /*.then start seeing the missed calls in the phone and messages from whom i thought(dissapointment though). came up with some calls from sirisha and all who are the people who know abt me .. like predicting what may be running in my mind when my face turns up to a undescribable geometrical object!!(Bad comparison, i know it). they know me quite well. felt exceptionally bad thinking abt what life had store in for me.. abt nikhils' talk(was telling i had lot of time for enjoying now.. if not now then never and then suddenly enter team working guys with money and no time) got up after the nap with rock on songs in radio for the day's play.. dissapointingly for an another day. no racket and exceptional partner to low down my morale. thot a lot while coming why this was happening. then was listenign to songs in radio.. mood changed like the radio station..lol!! this has almost become a redundant life for quite some months and sometimes i jus think its fun.. learning more than i would be learning in office, abt people at home !!
time and radio heals everything i suppose and the thing that just made me think was this:
Complexity and Diversity are illusions created by our limitations, Simplicity and Unity are Real.
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