Priorities

Hey Kala Kala Kala Bandhar Baahar hain ya , hain andhar..

This might be one of the posts which took me lot of time to come and perhaps things have been jus too .......(any adjective i use would be controversial)..It has been jus fair and nothing else.. Its jus that some people who have been stopped talking with me from quite some time have had a resurrection of their behaviour towards me. On a bad note, its jus that i have abruptly cancelled one of my biggest dream to sing( A Karaoke Program). The time i was planning for it, i was planning for it too much and GOD i was learning photoshop and all.Things make me jus so different for the event that i thin.. perhaps saturation is jus inching and i am almost on the verge of getting dfrnt and ugly. esp when there are threads like second aniversary and all..I see my thoughts sway suddenly somewhere the body is automatically teleported to a place like in the song" Dance of the Death", " They took me to a place unholy, and then danced and tranced with them".. Perhaps music is created, as told by raghu either to vent out; when under effect of drugs or in utter depression, perhaps thts when the real comes out and then music comes out, the incredible guitar solo sometimes, cant imagine.hmmm
Coming to priorities, its jus that i have wasted more than basic significant numeric value of chances to be in a such a stage to write this statement. i jus think i am fit into a frame that i cant move out and neither do i have a positive frame of mind to prepare for anything else. Infact bloggin is a big attempt after havng a tragedy in the GRE exam. But priority is most important. now that the Job is the only chance that i have and i have to accept it in any way it comes so be it the villain i go with and be it the vamp i work with , i have to neglect, infact pushing away them and work towards somthing different. not the Job, but something i know is not the Job.
Any word if really meant is too heavy to comprehend and for sure priority is in the top list..i think there are so many prioroties in many things like chosing between one and not the other wud give me somehting and take away from me something for sure. be it wht to eat, whether to reply or talk or no, go outside or no, shud i apply here or no, shud i go anywhere, shud i join CTS or no, shud i wait or no, shud i be happy or sad....
Perhaps in some situations too much analysis causes problems rather than simple decisions like chance.. perhaps people who talk and think less and simple are well "placed" than over-planned like many. I think many times that i shud be balanced in all occasions whtver happens or get response for everything. hmmm.. the right word is nonplussed.. neither do i have a bad sense of humour nor am i a clown.. The more things i learn , i presume the nearer i am getting to where i am supposed to go. I know for sure that this is not the place i am waiting for my incarnations to go in and i am not going to find a person like THE ARCHITECT(aka Matrix architect) to tell me i have reached the right place and all bullshit.. perhaps i have to be mentally, intellectually manipulated and modified for something better and nothign more than that.. I seriously have lost all the happiness that i planned for and jus think whtver comes on the way is the thing we have to be abreast with.. I have been going so far in both brave and coward ways and one shud includin me shud accept that one is responsible for whtver happens and therefore wait whtver one has to get..
Movies are now a days a rare thing. doing lot of image manipulation and sound mainpulation and perhaps after the tuitions, shud run off from all these things and come back with the call.!!!

Observation makes learning.
Learning leads to doing.
doing to knowing.
knowing to understanding.
understanding to prioritizing.
prioritizing to communion.
communion to perfection..