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* - People who have helped me in writing this Blog in Hyd.

I have joined the league of people who have travelled back home in Flight when they get Crack. Akka's* food in my house in kolkata made me to type a URL in my office at 11 0 clock a.m.

www.cleartrip.com

Sidharth* gave the kick i needed to book through my credit card. All i needed after that was to board the flight. My situation was worse than "The Terminal". First time i saw the places inside the airport after the ticket was given. Security Check, Boarding pass counter. "GodFather" book pushed the hands of my watch faster than i thought. So i was like feeling, " Is it jus two hours to Hyd..?". It takes two hours from Secunderabad to OsmanSagar in 5k\120. This is one took less than that.

X : "Joy Prakas, Flight mein jachees Amee",

Joy* : Very good amma Shyam Babu, i wish you would have got crack a day before so that you could have been in home a day earlier.

X: Pandu Gaaru, Flight lo velthunna intiki..

Pandu* : Eskalent andi, vellirandi.

The airhostess saw in my eyes and told Welcome aboard to IC 217. I began to laugh. She didnt know how to react. I took my seat and was seeing a KF Red Airlines taking off. Felt a jolt in my stomach. I had my planes' takeoff. Felt something was dropping in my stomach. I was seeing the glide and the turn of the aircraft. A decision could make me see all these. Came back home in an aeroexpress. When i had the tomato rice in my mouth at 9.45 p.m in the night. perhaps words weren't good enough a tool to tell what i was thinking.

Moral of the Lesson : Get Crack and Enjoy.

New Find: The meaning of the word, Aalbattar.

Setting up your Home Page

What do you want when you open your browser, what do u want to see, when u open your eyes daily. Home page, the starter in ur meal, the foto u wanna c when u wake up, the song that u want shud be ringing when u get up, the welcome background screen. waking up with a jerk in ur dream, waking up with a splash on ur face, waking up with "Man who sold his world"(Nirvana Song), makes a dfrnce. A hi with from a girl at work gives a feel good factor than a hi from a vodafone customer care call( although the hi sounds amazing. Its like Hiii.. welcome to Hutch care.. Oh god,the firnagi touch)..

Things that start good often make u feel better, even when u lose later. Its like the aamir khan funda in 3 idiots, dil ko bewkoof bana do, So things move on. I am still very happy that i am back home after possibly many jerks, I slept on the thursday with a Final destination feeling that some mishap was going tohappen on the friday(Day of Journey). Yes, the mishap was, i got up at 5.59 a.m, and my train was at 7.20. Sandeep, the saviour woke up and told from the verses of the BJ BLOCK Testament, " You had to go to your home, so i woke up to wake u up.", Thts the morning dose of feel good factor, the bus came late, no issues, Condcutor took double fare from me, no isssues, my boogie was at the last, no issues, i had all orissa guys in my place, no issues. There was a theft in my boogie, no issues :-), I had to ear biryani for 40 Rs with no vegetables in it, no issues. At last i came home, I am still happy. When i saw the place Palasa written in telugu onroute to Hyd, I felt like, the best language ever scripted is telugu, the looks of men and women, i dint have any spl reason, looked good, it was like, why dint i see all this for this long time.

The lights in the night in vizag was like so enchanting. Some one was putting Ringa Ringa behind. I had no words, never was i so homesick and the more these things were coming up, the more desperate i was getting to come home. I thought, "Home" is special. where Ever u go, Home is the place whihc u wil always crave for. Mitti kee hain jo khushbu, thu kaisa bhulaayega, Thu chaahey beha jaayein, thu laut key aayega. I suppose fundas are getting little too much. Anyways, one week of solid hi protein diet and meeting up frnds in essential for an another 3 4 months in the Bongland.

One year of Child Labour is done when its June 29 2010 A.D.

No more Pakaau stories.
Better things to come
iShyam

Bong and Cricket

Listening to: Kites Theme.

Singer: Hrithik Roshan.

Munna, Cho To Shirt Pant Isthri Hobey..?

(Munna, is is possible for u to iron 6 shirts and pants ?). The scene is set with six people in front of his shop playing teen pathein with nuts to eat with each. Munna gets up. Irons my clothes. takes money from me and starts playing with that money again.

Morning, when i start to walk through the DA Block park, I see young kiddos playing football with such intensity that perhaps with light and sound it would have been a Bong UEFA cup. They had audience and one of their frnd tellng like a coach, how and what to play. when one of the player hits a goal, he kisses the football, runs through out the park. bends down and kisses the mud below.instant bliss. perhaps, the game starts from the park.

On a typical saturday from Gautams Dhaba to park walking, i see approximately five parrallel BPL(Bong premier leagues) with sixes all around and rules so very compatible that a park can fit all the seven matches simulataneously. A small boy around ten years, dives to reach out to the crease and then fights back to bat though he is out. When the bowler bowls a ball and the batsman fails to hit it and misses it, the fielders say, "Same Ball Dada, Same Ball".Every one in India is a born batsman. Everyone who holds it, gets that feeling from lineage that he is going to hit a six.

Hamaara Bong is the only place where perhaps u will get a true perception of what a game can mean to anyone. Day by day, the city is starting to reveal so much of itself that perhaps, it holds too much and the more u see it, the more remains to be seen. Be it the ignorance of the people who behave like that or the nature in it, more remains to be seen. Seeing a match in Eden Gardens with the field shining and when shane bond bowls it, the Bong ground shows it color. the white leather ball glides and moves and it makes the audience mesmerized and the only word that comes to their mind is DADA. He is like that avtaar in Bong, where everyone waits for him to hit. When he slowed down in todays match, people were trying to cheer him up in other ways by shouting DONA, NAGMA lolzz. when the DJ says, "when i say KKR, u say,", the audience says DADA.With SRK and DADA, no one can ever make an anti-KKR audience. i started to sing the Bong "Lorbo Korbo Jeethbo" song as well.. He wins the match for KKR and all shout in praise of him again.

Calcutta,kolkata,bong are three stages of the place i was, am and will be. Its like a Anurag Kashyap movie, never underestimate it, never conclude by the trailer, go with the movie. u c lots of sense in it.

More professional, unprofessional, sporting action coming my way soon from now.watch for more bong stories and reality shows in this space.

So long,

The New Bongali

Calcutta in-Difference

Welcome to city of the reality, Welcome to the city of difference and its truly distinct style of teaching life to a person like me who is still in the egg shell of ignorance and unreal fun. Things are no uniquely dfrnt. U can automatically know that, u are here to learn things in the harder way. I was one of the 6 geese who were selected to go , reasons being spectacularly unknown. the only thing that comes to my mind when i hear Bangla is the dialogue from Pawan Kalyan in the movie KUSHI,

"Vishv mein ek rabindranath tagore, satyajit ray, jagadish chandra bose and char majumdar, Royal Bengal Tiger. Siddu Sidhartha Roy, We are all from hamaara Bangla.

Apart from having a summary of the woes i had in and due to kolkata, the other part is, i started to know and live amongst "people". I had seen poverty in the eye of a lady in the slum , i saw a conductor giving back two twenty five paise coins back to the traveller. i have seen a person pulling me on his shoulders for five rupees(rickshaw-victoria). i have seen people fighting for ten rupees. i have a live fish being cut.
I have seen intelligence used for cheating people. I have seen what bargaining is. i saw a place bigger than koti for shopping. i have seen how unsafe life is after 9 p.m. I have seen fear in the eye of a girl when she sees a drunkard falling. I have seen an illegal immigrant struggling for living and running from police. i have seen people travelling 40 kms to come to office. I have seen people and vehicles are totally unruly on roads. i have seen people think and live in the future here. I have seen people here are close and dont make relationships closed. I have seen the worst food that kolkata can offer and the best food we can make out of it. I havent seen ego in kolkata. I have seen a 50 year old man singing bengali songs with such perfection that u are mesmerized with his tune(i dint understand anything though). I have seen submissiveness, lessons in store for people like me who think life is going in a honda city and jumping and hopping to theatres and enjoying food that mom makes.

Kolkata made me to realize every word that my dad said, every lunch and dinner my mom made, every thing that my sister used to ask me, every little group that my frnds included me into, every frnd whom i used to mean a lot, every rupee i earned, every rupee i spent. It cracked me mentally, physically and emotionally. JP Morgan is jus a reason to teach me the lesson that kolkata offers to everyone. I have seen great people breaking down emotionally due to the resistance the city offers. For good or bad, people leave the city. I am here to learn the hidden side of Calcutta. the inner pages of the book that truly means and wil change my life for all the things ahead.

More things to come..


Shom Shunder
AD 189, Sector -1
Salt Lake.

Closed Eye Happiness

I asked the horizon, as i looked towards it
Can i reach u when i start to learn bit by bit
I know u would have me hit
I was using so much of my wit
That i would definitely fall into the pit
I had only word, which had my mouth knit
No other word other than "Quit"
No Space for hope or grit.

When the sheets were up from the eyes one day
was it on the end of may
I had left sorrows on the bay
Saw the news, Totally Numb i lay
I dint know whether the Almighty hear my pray
I promised i would never fall to my prey

Why doesnot words come
now when they should describe reaction and not staying mum
I had to talk to myself
Closed Eye Happiness i had with my Self
Sadness is always to create a mess
Thomas Jefferson in the declaration of Independence states" All are in the pursuit of Happiness".

This is what i call a Face Melter!!

What is the way to know the value of something and know the intrinsic meaning of why like should not get converted into craze. I like Basundhi a lot, my dad says," No rice from tomorrow". Only basundhi.. I am more than happy with his offer.. But as i said in my earlier posts, perhaps enjoying is leading to endjoying. So perhaps as the axiom goes," TMTB- Too Much is Too Bad". As always i am able to see the worst part now. I happened to eat loads of basundi for a day and the other day too, thinking on the postive side, i thought nobody gets rice and i get basundhi. racha!!. the third day as Kota Srinivas Rao in Money movie says," Started trouble. Same card, Names change", same thing i did too. I too thought enough of basundhi and changed back to rice and nice awakai. Figuratively, if we understand the other way, too much of happiness and too much of despair makes man to shift his options and go to something different where he thinks he can be satisfied or something. If for a case, i am made to eat basundhi even if i dont like to. The problem is i dont have an option. In this case if u r made to live between people whom u dont like or something and yet living between them is a sort of test for u.. There are two ways of dealing. Rebel or sustain. Both has growth. You rebel, you come out with your opinions and your talk and get a clarification about what he wants and what you are. The other way is a little tricky. The more u sustain, something like plastic deformation occurs there in your thought process and then U CHANGE. You become silent, you lose taste, You lose the vigour and start to listen and inquire rather than enquire about you. This is the point where u get a lot to think about something that is real and not superficial. While i see the style quotient of the car, you see the mileage. You run, i run sideways to see you that nothign happens to you, You eat, i see nothing falls down. You act, i watch. This is something GOD might be. He is nothing but a silent watcher. As Einstein says," Dont say what GOD should do". Many a oberservation says that if a person is silent most of the times, it means he is ignorant and does not know answers. sometimes like wild card entries there are some people who remain silent , observe and go off and at the end they add lot of value rather than others who talk lot. So not all the times being expressive pays off ans sometimes keeping to one self makes you comprehend a feeling. You are sad, You are homesick, You long or cling to something. Do u think this is the end of the emotion. Is despair the end result of anything. It is not. Anything should bring about a change and emotions bring about a change and change of emotion cannot be defined as a change as such.
When people lose big time, when come tell he never had "luck", He never had good friends with him, he never had good food, most people of this category turn silent and they often talk qualitatively rather than quantitatively and these people are declared "Low". They react to hardly anything, choise is a joke for them and they often avoid groups and gangs. Likes of Ayn Rand rather than a harry potter book. A NatGeo or History Channel documentary rather than a Mtv Roadies. These people cannot be categorized as people who are aloof but care more than usual, but the irony of the fact is when they care more than others, they are not expressive and dont expect much. Yet their words add so much value and weight that they dont remember what they said and rather wil u forget either.
A Story i have been telling to a many but never forget:
Me and my friend were walking on the shores of a beach. I see down on the sand and see there are four foot prints on the sand. I walk along. I am so happy in my life and i see down in the sands again. I see four foot prints. I am happy than my friend is there with me while i am happy to share with me.. I go into deep problems and agony and i still walk on the sands. I close my eyes in despair. I look back. I see when i was in agony, only two foot prints were there instead of four. I cry and i feel i am alone in this world and all friends are with me when i have money. I call back my friend when i happy over again and i ask him why he wasnt there with me when i was sad. He says, "Yes, there were two foot prints. Those were mine. I lifted you when u were in troubles and dint make u feel anything pain." Was i melted more than ever.!!!

More than a thought.. More than a feeling

When u start seeing good happening around you and you are not getting what u think u deserve, two things shud actually come to your mind. One is either you are indifferent or you must be special. the obvious things that happen to these category of people is they get flashes of hopes which make them to stick on to what they were sticking to these many days. It may mean it it might be for good or sometimes it might be a hint that there are better things waiting and the flash was jus to prove that it was more than time waste that we are waiting for things that we are not eligible for or we should be doing something more than our calibre and that we are not steadfast to it. Perhaps the most easiest thing to do is to talk and talk of that sort never carries weight. When your talk comes after you have experienced and tell a moral of your experience, the words carry more than weight. Lip sympathy infact sympathy are of no use and we should not waste our emotions on things or incidents that we know are for good and perhaps as i said time and radio heals every things. A cry, laugh, like , dislike, tension, happiness, struggle or infact life.. everything is so effortlessly moving that we fail to understand the motive of all these things happening around us. I feel sad now that i am doing nothing now. i feel happy in the evening that i dont have problems like them and not far from our parents and i am still waking up at 10 in the morning. In the night i feel i am wasted and sit and see where i am when many of my friends are moving ahead. I feel more than satisified with a nice Thumbs up in my mouth, i feel sad i cant spend as much as them. I feel happy when i go on raghu's bike with sweat on my face giving me a cooling effect. I feel sad when i see someone in Full Shirts Formals. Perhaps there are always some comprimises that one has to make to decide what he has to do for a period of time. If i get a job, i should change myself perhaps i wil get changed and should change economically, mentally, and perhaps verbally too. Growth is such a phenomenon that gives us something and takes away from us too something and perhaps that things should not be with us. Honestly till now what ever i liked or needed most, i go away from it or perhaps i struggle more than others but i add value to it and i make sure that i do more than justice and see i am unique not indifferent. I need to study , go to US but i miss parents and friends. I like to get a job but i cant struggle more and want to go to shuttle at 5 sharp. i want lot of salary and no taxes. I want AC around me and not the heat that comes out of it. I want life full of happiness and not the other part. One question is that if u want all the happiness, there is also sadness and if everytime everybody thinks they are fair in what they do in their life, why you get the happiness and why me get the despair..?
I see sometimes looking outside the window of the bus sometimes all the people are in such a hurry in accomplishing all things. when i start walking silently sometmes to the shuttle ground, if i observe myself carefully, i talk, i smile, i show many mixed emotions, run fast, sing or hum that i cant observe and others see with ease. the converse happens too. Seriously our mind is too big , too complex hmmm machine which keeps on doing so much work that it makes look anything small and un noticeable. But the irony is it transforms everything around it when its too happy or too sad. The world and people around us looks so good and so green and so musical when things go our way and then when we dont get what we get, frustration cries through our mind, hands getting itchy to beat some one without reason, angry for losing one serve in a game, remaining silent when u were always blaberring before when u were happy. Fluctuation, happiness healing to despair and converse happening. Making the mind more strong, making the emotions come out rarely and appropriately. Getting the balanced outlook towards everything. Perhaps inching towards something better and everytime we think we dont want anything and everything comes on its own when needed is the state when all things start to settle and perhaps preparing us for something better. The mind or the brain whatever makes me tell this, talk like this has total power to change my outlook and at present is most fluctuatin. The most educated person when i see crying, i feel the power of mind. Perhaps knowing is nothing when compared to understanding.Understandin is nothing in front of feeling.

Beyond all thoughts are you
Complex u r that u leave no clue
Be it a water in the form of dew
Or the tears which came from the blue
Happening is it, falsehood or true
Closer u drew
I learnt , the stronger i grew.!!