I asked the horizon, as i looked towards it
Can i reach u when i start to learn bit by bit
I know u would have me hit
I was using so much of my wit
That i would definitely fall into the pit
I had only word, which had my mouth knit
No other word other than "Quit"
No Space for hope or grit.
When the sheets were up from the eyes one day
was it on the end of may
I had left sorrows on the bay
Saw the news, Totally Numb i lay
I dint know whether the Almighty hear my pray
I promised i would never fall to my prey
Why doesnot words come
now when they should describe reaction and not staying mum
I had to talk to myself
Closed Eye Happiness i had with my Self
Sadness is always to create a mess
Thomas Jefferson in the declaration of Independence states" All are in the pursuit of Happiness".
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
This is what i call a Face Melter!!
What is the way to know the value of something and know the intrinsic meaning of why like should not get converted into craze. I like Basundhi a lot, my dad says," No rice from tomorrow". Only basundhi.. I am more than happy with his offer.. But as i said in my earlier posts, perhaps enjoying is leading to endjoying. So perhaps as the axiom goes," TMTB- Too Much is Too Bad". As always i am able to see the worst part now. I happened to eat loads of basundi for a day and the other day too, thinking on the postive side, i thought nobody gets rice and i get basundhi. racha!!. the third day as Kota Srinivas Rao in Money movie says," Started trouble. Same card, Names change", same thing i did too. I too thought enough of basundhi and changed back to rice and nice awakai. Figuratively, if we understand the other way, too much of happiness and too much of despair makes man to shift his options and go to something different where he thinks he can be satisfied or something. If for a case, i am made to eat basundhi even if i dont like to. The problem is i dont have an option. In this case if u r made to live between people whom u dont like or something and yet living between them is a sort of test for u.. There are two ways of dealing. Rebel or sustain. Both has growth. You rebel, you come out with your opinions and your talk and get a clarification about what he wants and what you are. The other way is a little tricky. The more u sustain, something like plastic deformation occurs there in your thought process and then U CHANGE. You become silent, you lose taste, You lose the vigour and start to listen and inquire rather than enquire about you. This is the point where u get a lot to think about something that is real and not superficial. While i see the style quotient of the car, you see the mileage. You run, i run sideways to see you that nothign happens to you, You eat, i see nothing falls down. You act, i watch. This is something GOD might be. He is nothing but a silent watcher. As Einstein says," Dont say what GOD should do". Many a oberservation says that if a person is silent most of the times, it means he is ignorant and does not know answers. sometimes like wild card entries there are some people who remain silent , observe and go off and at the end they add lot of value rather than others who talk lot. So not all the times being expressive pays off ans sometimes keeping to one self makes you comprehend a feeling. You are sad, You are homesick, You long or cling to something. Do u think this is the end of the emotion. Is despair the end result of anything. It is not. Anything should bring about a change and emotions bring about a change and change of emotion cannot be defined as a change as such.
When people lose big time, when come tell he never had "luck", He never had good friends with him, he never had good food, most people of this category turn silent and they often talk qualitatively rather than quantitatively and these people are declared "Low". They react to hardly anything, choise is a joke for them and they often avoid groups and gangs. Likes of Ayn Rand rather than a harry potter book. A NatGeo or History Channel documentary rather than a Mtv Roadies. These people cannot be categorized as people who are aloof but care more than usual, but the irony of the fact is when they care more than others, they are not expressive and dont expect much. Yet their words add so much value and weight that they dont remember what they said and rather wil u forget either.
A Story i have been telling to a many but never forget:
Me and my friend were walking on the shores of a beach. I see down on the sand and see there are four foot prints on the sand. I walk along. I am so happy in my life and i see down in the sands again. I see four foot prints. I am happy than my friend is there with me while i am happy to share with me.. I go into deep problems and agony and i still walk on the sands. I close my eyes in despair. I look back. I see when i was in agony, only two foot prints were there instead of four. I cry and i feel i am alone in this world and all friends are with me when i have money. I call back my friend when i happy over again and i ask him why he wasnt there with me when i was sad. He says, "Yes, there were two foot prints. Those were mine. I lifted you when u were in troubles and dint make u feel anything pain." Was i melted more than ever.!!!
When people lose big time, when come tell he never had "luck", He never had good friends with him, he never had good food, most people of this category turn silent and they often talk qualitatively rather than quantitatively and these people are declared "Low". They react to hardly anything, choise is a joke for them and they often avoid groups and gangs. Likes of Ayn Rand rather than a harry potter book. A NatGeo or History Channel documentary rather than a Mtv Roadies. These people cannot be categorized as people who are aloof but care more than usual, but the irony of the fact is when they care more than others, they are not expressive and dont expect much. Yet their words add so much value and weight that they dont remember what they said and rather wil u forget either.
A Story i have been telling to a many but never forget:
Me and my friend were walking on the shores of a beach. I see down on the sand and see there are four foot prints on the sand. I walk along. I am so happy in my life and i see down in the sands again. I see four foot prints. I am happy than my friend is there with me while i am happy to share with me.. I go into deep problems and agony and i still walk on the sands. I close my eyes in despair. I look back. I see when i was in agony, only two foot prints were there instead of four. I cry and i feel i am alone in this world and all friends are with me when i have money. I call back my friend when i happy over again and i ask him why he wasnt there with me when i was sad. He says, "Yes, there were two foot prints. Those were mine. I lifted you when u were in troubles and dint make u feel anything pain." Was i melted more than ever.!!!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
More than a thought.. More than a feeling
When u start seeing good happening around you and you are not getting what u think u deserve, two things shud actually come to your mind. One is either you are indifferent or you must be special. the obvious things that happen to these category of people is they get flashes of hopes which make them to stick on to what they were sticking to these many days. It may mean it it might be for good or sometimes it might be a hint that there are better things waiting and the flash was jus to prove that it was more than time waste that we are waiting for things that we are not eligible for or we should be doing something more than our calibre and that we are not steadfast to it. Perhaps the most easiest thing to do is to talk and talk of that sort never carries weight. When your talk comes after you have experienced and tell a moral of your experience, the words carry more than weight. Lip sympathy infact sympathy are of no use and we should not waste our emotions on things or incidents that we know are for good and perhaps as i said time and radio heals every things. A cry, laugh, like , dislike, tension, happiness, struggle or infact life.. everything is so effortlessly moving that we fail to understand the motive of all these things happening around us. I feel sad now that i am doing nothing now. i feel happy in the evening that i dont have problems like them and not far from our parents and i am still waking up at 10 in the morning. In the night i feel i am wasted and sit and see where i am when many of my friends are moving ahead. I feel more than satisified with a nice Thumbs up in my mouth, i feel sad i cant spend as much as them. I feel happy when i go on raghu's bike with sweat on my face giving me a cooling effect. I feel sad when i see someone in Full Shirts Formals. Perhaps there are always some comprimises that one has to make to decide what he has to do for a period of time. If i get a job, i should change myself perhaps i wil get changed and should change economically, mentally, and perhaps verbally too. Growth is such a phenomenon that gives us something and takes away from us too something and perhaps that things should not be with us. Honestly till now what ever i liked or needed most, i go away from it or perhaps i struggle more than others but i add value to it and i make sure that i do more than justice and see i am unique not indifferent. I need to study , go to US but i miss parents and friends. I like to get a job but i cant struggle more and want to go to shuttle at 5 sharp. i want lot of salary and no taxes. I want AC around me and not the heat that comes out of it. I want life full of happiness and not the other part. One question is that if u want all the happiness, there is also sadness and if everytime everybody thinks they are fair in what they do in their life, why you get the happiness and why me get the despair..?
I see sometimes looking outside the window of the bus sometimes all the people are in such a hurry in accomplishing all things. when i start walking silently sometmes to the shuttle ground, if i observe myself carefully, i talk, i smile, i show many mixed emotions, run fast, sing or hum that i cant observe and others see with ease. the converse happens too. Seriously our mind is too big , too complex hmmm machine which keeps on doing so much work that it makes look anything small and un noticeable. But the irony is it transforms everything around it when its too happy or too sad. The world and people around us looks so good and so green and so musical when things go our way and then when we dont get what we get, frustration cries through our mind, hands getting itchy to beat some one without reason, angry for losing one serve in a game, remaining silent when u were always blaberring before when u were happy. Fluctuation, happiness healing to despair and converse happening. Making the mind more strong, making the emotions come out rarely and appropriately. Getting the balanced outlook towards everything. Perhaps inching towards something better and everytime we think we dont want anything and everything comes on its own when needed is the state when all things start to settle and perhaps preparing us for something better. The mind or the brain whatever makes me tell this, talk like this has total power to change my outlook and at present is most fluctuatin. The most educated person when i see crying, i feel the power of mind. Perhaps knowing is nothing when compared to understanding.Understandin is nothing in front of feeling.
Beyond all thoughts are you
Complex u r that u leave no clue
Be it a water in the form of dew
Or the tears which came from the blue
Happening is it, falsehood or true
Closer u drew
I learnt , the stronger i grew.!!
I see sometimes looking outside the window of the bus sometimes all the people are in such a hurry in accomplishing all things. when i start walking silently sometmes to the shuttle ground, if i observe myself carefully, i talk, i smile, i show many mixed emotions, run fast, sing or hum that i cant observe and others see with ease. the converse happens too. Seriously our mind is too big , too complex hmmm machine which keeps on doing so much work that it makes look anything small and un noticeable. But the irony is it transforms everything around it when its too happy or too sad. The world and people around us looks so good and so green and so musical when things go our way and then when we dont get what we get, frustration cries through our mind, hands getting itchy to beat some one without reason, angry for losing one serve in a game, remaining silent when u were always blaberring before when u were happy. Fluctuation, happiness healing to despair and converse happening. Making the mind more strong, making the emotions come out rarely and appropriately. Getting the balanced outlook towards everything. Perhaps inching towards something better and everytime we think we dont want anything and everything comes on its own when needed is the state when all things start to settle and perhaps preparing us for something better. The mind or the brain whatever makes me tell this, talk like this has total power to change my outlook and at present is most fluctuatin. The most educated person when i see crying, i feel the power of mind. Perhaps knowing is nothing when compared to understanding.Understandin is nothing in front of feeling.
Beyond all thoughts are you
Complex u r that u leave no clue
Be it a water in the form of dew
Or the tears which came from the blue
Happening is it, falsehood or true
Closer u drew
I learnt , the stronger i grew.!!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Providence or Coincidence?
I am on the edge of a mountain and i am jus about to fall into that, i have somethin like the ring that freudo has, and somebody needs it and i am ready to fall into that, i hold on to a rock while the person who needs the ring bollywoodically slips down and falls into the lava and i come up emphatically up..(scene change).. I see my school classmate coming to my college and then tells mehow i have been.I talk for some time and suddenly somebody hits me from back.All shout.(teleport) I see myself sitting in a seat in a pub and colours of the light make me look different, i am dragged by my friends to dance and i dont. we all go to the beach and suddenlymy phone rings from an unknown number. I shout a lot but the person on the other side's voice is never audible. i shout even more. I have a jerk. I see myself on the bed with sweat on my face and get up and in an instant the feeling of the so called dream grips me and then again, in not less than ten min, the dream becomes sort of faint that i cant explain to anybody verbally. I then sit down and start to do my work.
Perhaps anything which i cant remember, cant be taken seriously and therefore i need lot more than utter encouragement and more than scientific proof and implications. Therefore wasting no more of my time i start to switch on the computer and see the torrent's progress and then do the rest of the day's work.
Around eleven or so i go out and then i feel the scorch of the sun and then start to walk at the edge of our road. I get a call that, i start play early today and then i start towards the ground, i remember that my frnds wants a dvd of movies i dwded recently and then again go back home and board the bus and then since there is nothing more than some 20 30 rupees for bus charge and the dvd, i drop the dvd more than five days and everybody glares at me. i get down and then go to the ground walking. I see that i have to reach out to the shuttle cock much more than required as the shuttle cock is seeming more than heavier today and i sweat for small shots also. Other friend comes and tells that he needs the dvd, i am puzzled and says i have to give it to other fellow. Small runnin around the ground and i get the dvd back..all say lets go to hotel, i dont have enoug money with me, i am dragged and then i come home back and then i sit in front of the computer and mom asks me whether i have finished some work or no. i cant listen properly. i moan then i shout.Suddenly i get a feel of deja-vu that somethin on the similar lines has happened me and if at all there were any thing like quantification or verbalization of experience or any feeling, i would have felt something similar. I see myself writing this blog now.
Perhaps a matrix call, the freudo ring from LOTR, the goa trip i've had, many incidents scrambled makes this dream like somewhat figuratively real. Anything that happens to us, good or bad gives us two options. Is it coincidence or providence. Depends on how brave we are, how timid we are, the answer answers us. Like Professor John Koestler says," Intelligent people find providence, the others find coincidence".
Long long ago, so long ago
When the Ego was not having the ego,
Present a vault that was beyond all riches
Wanted by all, wizards and the witches.
Too many clues, too many maps.
Would lead you to the goal or deadly traps
The more complex they made it, the same it looked.
Saw a person about this on the poster which was hooked.
Emptiness filled in him, little saw the glow glow
Moved did he towards the vault steady and slow
Closed his eyes did he, nothing did he expect
Simplicity he did reflect
Felt he elated when the vault was open,
The treasure was visible to him alone and not the other men
Said he to the other with pity
"I am the one to declare it empty" :-)
Perhaps anything which i cant remember, cant be taken seriously and therefore i need lot more than utter encouragement and more than scientific proof and implications. Therefore wasting no more of my time i start to switch on the computer and see the torrent's progress and then do the rest of the day's work.
Around eleven or so i go out and then i feel the scorch of the sun and then start to walk at the edge of our road. I get a call that, i start play early today and then i start towards the ground, i remember that my frnds wants a dvd of movies i dwded recently and then again go back home and board the bus and then since there is nothing more than some 20 30 rupees for bus charge and the dvd, i drop the dvd more than five days and everybody glares at me. i get down and then go to the ground walking. I see that i have to reach out to the shuttle cock much more than required as the shuttle cock is seeming more than heavier today and i sweat for small shots also. Other friend comes and tells that he needs the dvd, i am puzzled and says i have to give it to other fellow. Small runnin around the ground and i get the dvd back..all say lets go to hotel, i dont have enoug money with me, i am dragged and then i come home back and then i sit in front of the computer and mom asks me whether i have finished some work or no. i cant listen properly. i moan then i shout.Suddenly i get a feel of deja-vu that somethin on the similar lines has happened me and if at all there were any thing like quantification or verbalization of experience or any feeling, i would have felt something similar. I see myself writing this blog now.
Perhaps a matrix call, the freudo ring from LOTR, the goa trip i've had, many incidents scrambled makes this dream like somewhat figuratively real. Anything that happens to us, good or bad gives us two options. Is it coincidence or providence. Depends on how brave we are, how timid we are, the answer answers us. Like Professor John Koestler says," Intelligent people find providence, the others find coincidence".
Long long ago, so long ago
When the Ego was not having the ego,
Present a vault that was beyond all riches
Wanted by all, wizards and the witches.
Too many clues, too many maps.
Would lead you to the goal or deadly traps
The more complex they made it, the same it looked.
Saw a person about this on the poster which was hooked.
Emptiness filled in him, little saw the glow glow
Moved did he towards the vault steady and slow
Closed his eyes did he, nothing did he expect
Simplicity he did reflect
Felt he elated when the vault was open,
The treasure was visible to him alone and not the other men
Said he to the other with pity
"I am the one to declare it empty" :-)
Sunday, April 26, 2009
If you cant understand my silence, You cant understand my words
What can i blame, things
around me are just are falling apart.
Nectar is it, or is the snake i see with it's fangs
As i feel the delusion part,
More than the message, more than the Despair,
I see the Cause, I see change.
Are silence and control camouflaging flare
Lot to feel, lot to tell, lot to learn, see i no one in range...
Went along to see the place where the world ends
Diversity did i see when i came across friends and fiends
Exhaustion i felt, Goal felt more far, Roads looked more long with more bends
I poured my heart to everyone, people, animals and the winds.
Laughed did they, some pushed and then i asked my hands
Leading are you me to my lands.?
Practicality burnt my pocket making me lighter on my funds
why do pennies add more value than pounds
I close my eyes feeling the sands
Felt I, Can there be a communion with me and my minds.?
Ground did it, Scourged i was for my mistake
Emotion resorted to leave me and i did feel a quake
Eyes looked more than misty and had i more than a wake
What i thought, a world which i was living, was more than fake
So precise were the creations, so beautiful was the make.
I reached the place i wanted to, with utmost effort
struggled did i with my utmost heart
Got down i did from my cart
Saw that the board read," This is the End of the World"
Cacophonically did i sing about my happiness with my fold,
A Voice in the hush told my celebration should be put on hold
See The board completely was i told,
From the Other side, it read," The World Begins here"
Learnt did i more than a lear
The Inner voice had me to hear
Now the goal almost clear
made "Me" and me near.
Futile was the aim,
Futile was not the search,
Futile was the Funds
Futile was not the change of Minds
Assumed Futile is the past,
Futile is not the present.
While i see the communion and come back out of the mime,
I see i have missed yet again the Rhyme..!!!
around me are just are falling apart.
Nectar is it, or is the snake i see with it's fangs
As i feel the delusion part,
More than the message, more than the Despair,
I see the Cause, I see change.
Are silence and control camouflaging flare
Lot to feel, lot to tell, lot to learn, see i no one in range...
Went along to see the place where the world ends
Diversity did i see when i came across friends and fiends
Exhaustion i felt, Goal felt more far, Roads looked more long with more bends
I poured my heart to everyone, people, animals and the winds.
Laughed did they, some pushed and then i asked my hands
Leading are you me to my lands.?
Practicality burnt my pocket making me lighter on my funds
why do pennies add more value than pounds
I close my eyes feeling the sands
Felt I, Can there be a communion with me and my minds.?
Ground did it, Scourged i was for my mistake
Emotion resorted to leave me and i did feel a quake
Eyes looked more than misty and had i more than a wake
What i thought, a world which i was living, was more than fake
So precise were the creations, so beautiful was the make.
I reached the place i wanted to, with utmost effort
struggled did i with my utmost heart
Got down i did from my cart
Saw that the board read," This is the End of the World"
Cacophonically did i sing about my happiness with my fold,
A Voice in the hush told my celebration should be put on hold
See The board completely was i told,
From the Other side, it read," The World Begins here"
Learnt did i more than a lear
The Inner voice had me to hear
Now the goal almost clear
made "Me" and me near.
Futile was the aim,
Futile was not the search,
Futile was the Funds
Futile was not the change of Minds
Assumed Futile is the past,
Futile is not the present.
While i see the communion and come back out of the mime,
I see i have missed yet again the Rhyme..!!!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Mindynamics
I dont know why is it happening to me, suddenly one day i see my self so comfortable and optimistic that things never seem to have the potential to change themselves for might be good or bad. Things that are right now now occuring are testing my fluctuation power , emotional ability and for sure the inclination of something that makes me bad, in other words, i jus dono who would be empathic to understand whats going in me and to me. Perhaps, i jus dono the physical and mental capabilities that i possess, because i so interpret things are going way out the factor of safety limit that no aslyum may sure make me atleast cheerful and the more i get to face, the more i am losing the idea to get cheerful and this is all what i have chosen and i dint know i chose this tough. Mentally getting grilled is worst than nailing me physically on a cross. As i always observe, there are three things that primarily required so as to make me act proper and regular. The desire makes me to think towards the completion and the thought makes me further physically strive for it. So i think the higher i go and and i fall , i make a greater impact. Figuratively, i meant the worse i desire, the more i get inflicted upon because the desire is the force that makes the so called body dance to its tunes . I feel my stomach churn, contract and make so many physical movements with jus a sad feeling in my mind. I clearly could never understand the contrasting diffference between brain and mind. I affirm that the brain is the gateway to the brain and for sure there is a higher power in each that governs. But without the brain, the mind shall cease to exist. Its jus the powers in the human body and the mental powers are so accurately synchronized and delivered that we fail to find out the contrast or differenciate the working of each.Thts the reason sometimes people are alive when the brain is dead and when the people dono respond aka trance. The synchronization is lost here and thts the reason the unpredictable comes out. Its at this point that most of the times, people get flashes or do sometimes more than human.
Now i reason, is it possible to control thoughts. its possible to streamline it. Its like a torrent that can never be stopped but can be tapped and all we have to do is to go along with it. sometimes some events change the course of the torrent. But then , the underlying fact is that, the change caused might well become permanent and for sure either people talk or imagine something aka Hallucination. Its jus that, they can never express what they feel or see like and neither we can interpret their actions. They are held up in a certain energy state of thinking that nothing seems to be looking normal like us and for sure for good or bad, its due to some drastic events due to which thigns change in them and they go unforunately out of our reach. For good or bad, we never realize the power of a thought or a desire has. It has far more damaging effect than a physical infliction on ourself. But the point that has to be noted is that, anything that has happens in any plane, the physical body is affected for sure. The only way to crack the puzzle or in other words nulify the Karma we acquire is by doing deeds in the physical plane we live upon which is unfortunately not in control of itself.Therefore it looks like we have more than a challenge to face and more than an aim to focus on. Its like the puppet has to win the show changing the course of the movements that control it. Looks vague, but thts the nearest analogy we can actually reach out to.
If its the pathetic part we look on, its like a fighting a losing war. On the other hand, the war is never fought between two unequals and as said, nothing is unfair, if anything was unfair, life makes it fair. Perhaps better regulation and natural instincts might jus have to be the pre requisites to start for an attack. But as said, no body fights a losing war. The dynamics of the so called existence is to delicate and sophisticated that it makes many a people feel the growth acheived when you win a day in the war. Its not about the day u lose in the war, it matters whether the war is won or no. The irony here is, physics differenciates Statics and dynamics. In fact, Mind becomes more static when u r dynamic and more dynamic when u r static. I suppose laws that we frame and too small and non-specific that govern the mind and perhaps if the mind has made a rule, it always has an inert malfunction in it. In other words how can mind make rules for the mind. Well This is jus a beginning to Mindynamics..
Now i reason, is it possible to control thoughts. its possible to streamline it. Its like a torrent that can never be stopped but can be tapped and all we have to do is to go along with it. sometimes some events change the course of the torrent. But then , the underlying fact is that, the change caused might well become permanent and for sure either people talk or imagine something aka Hallucination. Its jus that, they can never express what they feel or see like and neither we can interpret their actions. They are held up in a certain energy state of thinking that nothing seems to be looking normal like us and for sure for good or bad, its due to some drastic events due to which thigns change in them and they go unforunately out of our reach. For good or bad, we never realize the power of a thought or a desire has. It has far more damaging effect than a physical infliction on ourself. But the point that has to be noted is that, anything that has happens in any plane, the physical body is affected for sure. The only way to crack the puzzle or in other words nulify the Karma we acquire is by doing deeds in the physical plane we live upon which is unfortunately not in control of itself.Therefore it looks like we have more than a challenge to face and more than an aim to focus on. Its like the puppet has to win the show changing the course of the movements that control it. Looks vague, but thts the nearest analogy we can actually reach out to.
If its the pathetic part we look on, its like a fighting a losing war. On the other hand, the war is never fought between two unequals and as said, nothing is unfair, if anything was unfair, life makes it fair. Perhaps better regulation and natural instincts might jus have to be the pre requisites to start for an attack. But as said, no body fights a losing war. The dynamics of the so called existence is to delicate and sophisticated that it makes many a people feel the growth acheived when you win a day in the war. Its not about the day u lose in the war, it matters whether the war is won or no. The irony here is, physics differenciates Statics and dynamics. In fact, Mind becomes more static when u r dynamic and more dynamic when u r static. I suppose laws that we frame and too small and non-specific that govern the mind and perhaps if the mind has made a rule, it always has an inert malfunction in it. In other words how can mind make rules for the mind. Well This is jus a beginning to Mindynamics..
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I am here to create Chaos..& the thing about the Chaos is, Its Fair
Do i see myself in the making
Scolding, crying, repenting and understanding.
Breaking up and having so many patches,
The rising of a dead Phoenix from its ashes.
The less i spoke, the more i heard,
made me separate from my herd.
I ask the heavens above,
Why isn't thou giving me the answers now.?
The Title is one of the few golden truths that THE JOKER tells about life. Every incident that occurs almost is true, perhaps the perception may not be true. The perception of a glass half filled with water is viewed in two ways. The person whose mental frame is set in pessimism, sees it half empty, where as the latter sees it half filled. Its the perception that governs a system, firm, mind and life. The person who is 40 years claims he is two thirds in grave when 60 yrs is the limit. There is so much problem with people who get close to us. There is either a chance of them getting totally confident on us that they doubt on us so much, if we do anything on our own and something different from the set mental frame in their mind. This thing breeds something called as conditioning and doubt in some cases. Possesivenness neither allows the person free and neither you free. Honestly and indeed i have suffered and have been a victim of both the cases. The worst thing is expectation from a person who is mostly instantaneous and basically friendly with all. The worst part is , when we get close to that person. He expect him/ her to fit into my mental frame that any deviation is not intolerable and i start to fluctuate for any change in the person's behaviour. Phew..! Moral of the story, Close, Closer, Closest, Closed :-P...
The human mind is so convenient and comfortable to describe emotions and situations in its language. Perhaps a word called unfair is never a part of any dictionary. Does anything happen to us that is unfair..? There is nothing called unfair and somethin getting unfair is fair. So its jus for us that to understand whts in store for us and perhaps realize our capabilities, strengths, limits and options.! Therefore to know ourselves, we need to primarily have a trial and error method to know ourselves and for sure when we are near our real mark, we wil get closer to wht we actually are. Perhaps sometimes i think, having a power like telepathy or reading other minds would not have created all these complications. Perhaps not having this faculty is fair..!! The irony of life is always as i mentioned, i dont get what i want now and my friend gets it now which he does not want. If everything were to be complete, wholesome and satisfying, there would not be anything called hunt, evolution or any effort to strive for or infact to reach out for.
Perfection is death and never strive for it. As i read things from Carl Sagan, he says anybody who is done with his responsibilities and his material duties, has to think about two things. Beginning and the End of anything. When are my sorrows going to end. when are my happy days going to come. Perhaps THE MATRIX answers everybody, Everything that has a beginning, has an end.
If everything were easy, Perhaps the creation would not be a worthy one. Its been a year long wait and believe it or no. I have being learning things in the most hardest way. Its like getting to learn addition at the age of twenty. Looks easy, but makes you realize easy things are most difficult to learn and the most horrible thing is when u know, u know addition the rest are learning higher things than that, you are declared u dono addition and made to relearn and believe it or no, you forget after addition after some time. Time creates a slack in you and perhaps the energy left in you does not show it VIVA in it. I suppose things have made me more thoughtful towards anything, a sort of stolid and neutral approach towards anything and perhaps, when my frnd tells me that hey did u see the flat beside you.?, Your earlier response would have been, "Ace man, That house looked exactly like the one i think i saw in my dreams," when you know already you are talking bullshit. instead the answer now would be an appreciating "Ya dude"..
As i have written for some of my frnds, in telugu some say, Gaadidhi guddu, kankara peesu. The thoughtful niche makes u think God The Good, Conquer peace. Thoughts get thoughtful. Thinking of a classic slow song like the Man who sold the world -Nirvana or probably New Moon-Twilight Background. Sometimes around 2 or 3 in the night when i start to explore my balcony in the night.(Jab Sara Sheher Sotha Hai, Thab Shyam Balcony mein Ghoomtha Hain..Lol), i ponder so much that thoughts get to condense from my eyes and make me thoughtful about what things have made me to stand there and think about things that has made me see REALITY and perhaps sometime before, i was too timid to stand out and accept and see that. It has been more than managing for the time being before and when time comes when i have to see what i have done, i repent and perhaps everybody has a time for this and i am havin it now and Like said," Everybody wil catch the train, i will too catch, but at the last. "Can busy life surf out more thoughts in me than now, when i have too much to think and nothing to do.?
Growth should never be a constant term when one is static and perhaps he has to outgrow himself as the day finishes. Perhaps we have to outgrow people, emotions and reactions for an event tomorow if there is a case if deja-vu. Perhaps a life is too big a day to outgrow what we have learnt this life and perhaps in the next life have a different approach for the same thing. The beauty of creation is, in any life you never have a deja-vu and always you have to act with your instincts. Growth is such a wonderful phenomenon that makes you fall every moment making you to more stronger to climb higher and know that Life is like a game of cards, The point u think you hold all the cards, you lose most.
Scolding, crying, repenting and understanding.
Breaking up and having so many patches,
The rising of a dead Phoenix from its ashes.
The less i spoke, the more i heard,
made me separate from my herd.
I ask the heavens above,
Why isn't thou giving me the answers now.?
The Title is one of the few golden truths that THE JOKER tells about life. Every incident that occurs almost is true, perhaps the perception may not be true. The perception of a glass half filled with water is viewed in two ways. The person whose mental frame is set in pessimism, sees it half empty, where as the latter sees it half filled. Its the perception that governs a system, firm, mind and life. The person who is 40 years claims he is two thirds in grave when 60 yrs is the limit. There is so much problem with people who get close to us. There is either a chance of them getting totally confident on us that they doubt on us so much, if we do anything on our own and something different from the set mental frame in their mind. This thing breeds something called as conditioning and doubt in some cases. Possesivenness neither allows the person free and neither you free. Honestly and indeed i have suffered and have been a victim of both the cases. The worst thing is expectation from a person who is mostly instantaneous and basically friendly with all. The worst part is , when we get close to that person. He expect him/ her to fit into my mental frame that any deviation is not intolerable and i start to fluctuate for any change in the person's behaviour. Phew..! Moral of the story, Close, Closer, Closest, Closed :-P...
The human mind is so convenient and comfortable to describe emotions and situations in its language. Perhaps a word called unfair is never a part of any dictionary. Does anything happen to us that is unfair..? There is nothing called unfair and somethin getting unfair is fair. So its jus for us that to understand whts in store for us and perhaps realize our capabilities, strengths, limits and options.! Therefore to know ourselves, we need to primarily have a trial and error method to know ourselves and for sure when we are near our real mark, we wil get closer to wht we actually are. Perhaps sometimes i think, having a power like telepathy or reading other minds would not have created all these complications. Perhaps not having this faculty is fair..!! The irony of life is always as i mentioned, i dont get what i want now and my friend gets it now which he does not want. If everything were to be complete, wholesome and satisfying, there would not be anything called hunt, evolution or any effort to strive for or infact to reach out for.
Perfection is death and never strive for it. As i read things from Carl Sagan, he says anybody who is done with his responsibilities and his material duties, has to think about two things. Beginning and the End of anything. When are my sorrows going to end. when are my happy days going to come. Perhaps THE MATRIX answers everybody, Everything that has a beginning, has an end.
If everything were easy, Perhaps the creation would not be a worthy one. Its been a year long wait and believe it or no. I have being learning things in the most hardest way. Its like getting to learn addition at the age of twenty. Looks easy, but makes you realize easy things are most difficult to learn and the most horrible thing is when u know, u know addition the rest are learning higher things than that, you are declared u dono addition and made to relearn and believe it or no, you forget after addition after some time. Time creates a slack in you and perhaps the energy left in you does not show it VIVA in it. I suppose things have made me more thoughtful towards anything, a sort of stolid and neutral approach towards anything and perhaps, when my frnd tells me that hey did u see the flat beside you.?, Your earlier response would have been, "Ace man, That house looked exactly like the one i think i saw in my dreams," when you know already you are talking bullshit. instead the answer now would be an appreciating "Ya dude"..
As i have written for some of my frnds, in telugu some say, Gaadidhi guddu, kankara peesu. The thoughtful niche makes u think God The Good, Conquer peace. Thoughts get thoughtful. Thinking of a classic slow song like the Man who sold the world -Nirvana or probably New Moon-Twilight Background. Sometimes around 2 or 3 in the night when i start to explore my balcony in the night.(Jab Sara Sheher Sotha Hai, Thab Shyam Balcony mein Ghoomtha Hain..Lol), i ponder so much that thoughts get to condense from my eyes and make me thoughtful about what things have made me to stand there and think about things that has made me see REALITY and perhaps sometime before, i was too timid to stand out and accept and see that. It has been more than managing for the time being before and when time comes when i have to see what i have done, i repent and perhaps everybody has a time for this and i am havin it now and Like said," Everybody wil catch the train, i will too catch, but at the last. "Can busy life surf out more thoughts in me than now, when i have too much to think and nothing to do.?
Growth should never be a constant term when one is static and perhaps he has to outgrow himself as the day finishes. Perhaps we have to outgrow people, emotions and reactions for an event tomorow if there is a case if deja-vu. Perhaps a life is too big a day to outgrow what we have learnt this life and perhaps in the next life have a different approach for the same thing. The beauty of creation is, in any life you never have a deja-vu and always you have to act with your instincts. Growth is such a wonderful phenomenon that makes you fall every moment making you to more stronger to climb higher and know that Life is like a game of cards, The point u think you hold all the cards, you lose most.
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